TV Nerd:(

I got up this afternoon (coz it was eleven thirty when I woke up)thinking "Screw it!",I aint gonna look at the comp anymore..I've got Eragon to read!"I was sick of it!!Lately I've been addicted to my PC not because I chat a lot but because I catch my fav sitcom Scrubs online.Day in and day out I've been watching it and what normal people watch in 5 years I've watched it in a matter of 10 days!You'd think I'd be ashamed..But like all addicts I didn give a damn...until now..I finally starightened my mind ,resolutely signed into blogger and put on an anti-glare spectacle to be used for the comp...[sittin for hours together in front of this addictive monster does take a toll on one's eyes I've heard]

I started out with Obama's coronation ceremony in my mind when I put on my mom's super powered spectacle instead of the one with anti-glare and got a scorching glare from my inner eye!'You wanna end up in the hospital just like in Scrubs so much that you wanna destroy me?!'it roared in a funny puppet voice..

That's when I immediately changed my mind about what I had to write.What the heck!As long as Obama doesn't make people say 'O-Bummer!' at the end of his term we're gonna be alright.

I've seen different classes of nerdiness in my engineering life..

--->The nerdy nerds-those who've no qualms about what people around them think or do as long as they aren bothered.

--->The defiant nerds-those who are non-nerdy on the outside and super-nerdy inside.

--->The non-nerds-who barely slog yet make it to the top thanks to those precious strings of inherited dna.

now coming to the last category...

--->The TV Nerds-people like me:(

I need help!

I need to go and blow some steam  off  else I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up inside the monitor of this damned computer!

Who am I?

I'm TV Nerd[not BATMAN:(((!!!]

I heard the music!!

Yesterday was very profound..

Not because Pakistan finally started taking action by rooting out the Jamaad Camps...

Not because the ICC's come out with a very crappy list of the top batsmen and bowlers..

Not even because the Satyam board got new members to accomplish its Operation Salvage...

Lets get some perspective here..shall we?!

Its my blog!So obviously it would be something consanguineous to me!

Yesterday I realized certain situations sprout up in our lives only to test hell outta us!They sprout up only to see if a person's capable of calling the shots to prove his/her mettle,may be not to the whole wide world but to that small squeaky irritating voice in the head and to quieten the qualms that one often has about his/her capabilities.

Once that squeaky voice becomes music is when you know you've done it!You've done what is right and at that point of time the music is so exhilirating and so intoxicating that the very act of doing what was right seems like a bigger triumph than what is to come!

So what am I trying so say?

Always do what is right?!

Always listen to your conscience?!

Nooooooooooo!!!

Just that yesterday was very profound!:D

PS-For the record I did hear the music!!!:);)

If only I had shown how much I cared,

If only I had my feelings to you bared,

If only I had shown true concern,

Life wouldn’t have taken this nasty a turn;

If only I’d been truthful,

to you and to myself

Life would have been a journey far more beautiful;

If only I had another chance,

I’d break my silence and dance,

To celebrate the love ... that is mine…that was yours…

But alas, fate threw its cards on the table,

And I was cruelly woken up from my own fable…

There it lies in my eyes…the story of my love…Untold and unheard

The love I betrayed,

The love that reality did not portray,

My love, like yours, isn’t my life,

It is darkness beyond penetration,

Anger much beyond frustration,

My love isn’t my life……..

It’s simply hell…in all its glory….

Faux-pause XXXXX!

           It was one of those typical evenings before exams...incessant messaging wishing people "gud luck" in the most innovative ways...{One of them actually comparing the memory of students writing the exams  the next day to Ghajini's memory..blank after 15 minutes !}despite acute shortage of time..In between these silly forwards were bitchy conversations targeted at the audacity of VTU to put 'young,budding,minds' [like ours;) ]through such atrocious crap called "EXAMS":D...[marathon bitching about exams becomes a way of life in engineering...in any UG course for that matter:P]Anyway I was in the middle of one of these conversations when I missed my friend sooo much that I told her..'come off rashu!lets do a train dance on the last day of exams...Let Mu lead us since he's someone endowed with people skills!'All she did was giggle after which we said gunnyt and went back give an audience to our books .

          The last day of the monstrous exam series finally dawned upon us and we were all soo happy that we were clueless about what to do next!I was standing in the corridor chatting away to glory when Rashu and Mu came marching by in all smiles and a great deal of confidence in their strides and roared 'Lets Go!!'

         At first i thought they were joking...turns out they weren't...!!My stupid idea actually inspired them to run around the whole damn college!!I comfortably backed out but Mu..a leader that he is convinced me to do a simple train dance around the Library katte..I must say I was pretty embarrased!But more than that I was soo let down by me!!!Instead of doing what my crazy heart told me to..I simply stuck by the rules of stupid-boring-social etiquette!!!!Another faux-pause in the list of innumerable faux-pauses!!

        I promise you Mu and Rashu..the next time we meet up...we'll go for a train dance![for having given itna saara bhav for my stupid idea!]And this time I wont care even if the Princi's looking at me!!!

I always thought my thinking and my way of life was way more complex than any normal human being's...Well..who doesn't love to exagerrate?!;){See..even the blog starts with an 'I'..I'm not Narcissistic though:P }I thought I'd take days to just think back on the life I've led so far!Ironically,I found two words that perfectly described my existence on earth so far..! FAUX-PAUSE! I've always been afraid to take up new undertakings wondering if I'll end up in a socially embarassing situation!!Turns out 'embarassment' is my loyal companion!So wherever i go...whatever I do it's promised to always follow me{ unlike my mobile network which has irritated very many over the years}!Pausing the faux is what I've done all my life and thus paused every opportunity that presented itself before me for so long that it eventually got bored and knocked someone else's luck!But all that's going to change...It'll take sometime for me though..but I'm going to make sure I don't chicken outta anything anymore!!!!!This blog is an account of my life till date...{Which is obviously filled with THE most embarassing situations}I figured if one can laugh at them...one can overcome them!turns out its pretty easy!;)so here's my new journey on an old life ..ironically d path is the virtual .but still an  addictive one;)